What is wrong with you ma’am? Why are you crying and fussing about how no one likes you or loves you? Why are you walking around acting like the victim? Why are you tormenting yourself with every thought from suicide, harming yourself, hurting others, burning up old memory items, becoming isolated and so on? Why are you disregarding your skills and abilities because of the people who frowned at them? Why is your assumed valued wrapped up in what you have and what you don’t? Why are you extra critical of yourself all the time? Why do you see others as treasures but discount yourself as just another piece for the next person to have sex with and walk away? Why do you feel everything in life is happening to you and only you? Why do you feel like life sucks and you haven’t even began to live yet? Why do you feel like the biggest failure in the universe? Why do you insist on sitting in the corner with this pity party hat on? Why? Why? What is wrong with you?
If you are asking any of these questions and having any of these thoughts then I am indeed talking to you.
Today I want to have a real discussion with you about this because it is time out for it! It is time out for deciding that living with low or no self-worth is okay with you. Someone is probably thinking, “No one wants to live with low self-worth or esteem”. I beg to differ. If you are in this place now it is because you choose to be. Now, I hear someone saying, “How would you know and why are you being so hard about it”? Well, I know because one day I had to make a choice to want different as well. I am an authority on the subject of pity parties and I refuse to allow you to remain there another day.
I had many questions myself; many thoughts that were just as damaging as physically hurting myself. Actually they were probably worse because at least the physical things would heal. Why does everybody hate me? Why am I the one they want to bully every time? Why does he like her better than me? Why am I letting him touch me there again? Why won’t he stay even when I am giving him what he wants?
Yup. I was that girl. I asked why and I also ask how. How can I get them to like me better than the other girls? How can I get them to stay with me so I have a valentine this year too? How can I get everybody to understand that I’m not trying to be a whore but that I have to give something in order to get something? How? Why?
Here is the interesting part. I was a believer. I had given my heart to Christ at the age of 5 years old and was filled with the Holy Ghost at the age of 8. I remember wanting God so bad and not being ashamed of it. Yet, I was just one who heard the sermons that were preached. I didn’t, however, know how to apply them or how to use them to help me climb out of the big pit I had dug for myself. Low self-worth is indeed real. I am not trying to make light of it or how you got there. I am telling to GET UP and GET IT TOGETHER!!!
There is a new party that you are about to invite people to. It’s a party of victory and celebration. You are about to take a hold of your value and increase it in your own eyes. God already sees you from the proper lenses but until you do, not even His view of you will matter to you. You hear all the messages about how you are “Fearfully and Wonderfully Made” but it goes in one ear and out of the other. It does not take root within because you can not possibly begin to see yourself being created with reverence by God. But today, that is going to change.
First things first, go stand in a mirror or grab a hand held one…
Second, take it all in. Every part of your face or whatever parts of you that you can see. Take it all in, just as you are. If you have on make up, consider why you have it on. If you have marks on your face, think about why. If you are “too” skinny, ask yourself why. If you are over weight, think on why. Take it all in.
The next thing I want you to do is talk to yourself. If you are crying, that’s okay too. Talk though the streams that are flowing. Repeat this and we are done….
“Today, I invite myself to a different party. This party is to celebrate who I am and who God created me to be. Today I determine that it is this person that I shall learn to BE. She is in here and I want to meet her. I will allow her to rise to the top and take her rightful place. Today, I celebrate my new determination to climb out of the place of oppression, depression and self-sabotage. Today, i change my mind. I am not who any one says I am. Only God can say and I embrace what He has called me. I am good!”
That’s that! Today you have changed your mind. That is the beginning. I am glad to attend this party. Thank you for the invite.
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